Thoughts and Certainty

Christmas season makes me think of a move and a break up. When I first was thinking of time spent this time last year, I was almost nostalgic. But now I am reminded of why there was another move and a break up. The annoyances and frustrations and hurts are stirred a little bit-the parts that aren't quite put to rest, maybe things that shouldn't be put to rest completely. I need to be reminded there is a healthy level of pride, pride that doesn't allow you to be pushed to the back burner, swept aside to let career and church make their sneaky presence dominant. God is good and He made marriage good, so I think times and things surrounding marriage should be well attended to-and not only when you feel like it or feel "safe" enough to let it in. I want to be passionate about marriage today, yesterday, and tomorrow-in all stages of a relationship. I want to be obedient to talk about it and discover it and be on purpose. I want to respect it enough to back out of a relationship that doesn't hold marriage as a passion. Somehow marriage got a hold of this paragraph.

I wanted to point out that I'm feeling glad about ending something when it seems to be taunting me with what could have been. I am remembering clearly the why of the death and feeling relief and almost gladness. This taunting will not let doubt win. Good wins. Rightness wins. I do what I want now, not what someone thinks I should be doing. Because I think wants still connect us with God's wants.

Christmas is good again. At least on the commercialism side.

i really don't like malls.