haven't been here for a while. went to SD for a weekend with a friend. this friend to me has changed, i have seen her in a different light than i did before a simple trip with her. black hills are BEAUTIFUL. i see these trees differently than the iowa and north carolina trees. they are more massive than nc, sacred land, and majestic. God's glory and paint brush. 

on another note, my old boyfriend-not calling him ex, that sounds so harsh-was held at gun-point on Sunday night. the sickos took his car, money, phone, and other things. when i first read it i was so shocked, frozen. but almost instantly i felt peace. knowing God's hand was there and that His spirit was in me keeping check. this isn't a means to make me feel sorry for the break-up or moving back home. that still feels right. whether or not that feels right to my mom, i need to not care about anymore. it's difficult to picture A going through that, to see a gun in his face, see him getting hit with it. God was there, is there. Evil does not win. in any case.