break

the next several days are mine to exhaust and be free. so i am going to try to write every day and see if i can wake up again.

yesterday was everything-frustrating, great, full, yet empty, and emotional. i am to the breaking point with my job. it's one of those things where i should stay to even out the ratio of good versus evil-and i mean that in every way. or i should leave because i am thinking i am worn down and tired. there are people i work with who shouldn't be working with kids. and no one seems to think much of it, and i've tried to communicate it, no one listens. makes me think i want to be the boss. ha.

just seem to be at a place of limbo. No church. which sucks-i never thought i would be here. and i didn't expect this from people. maybe it's just all my fault. maybe everything was just a stage and we were playing our parts. i want to think more and better of people. no one has called or texted or written. i am sure the questions have been asked to others. where are they? what's going on? are they coming back? is it because she has a boyfriend? are they planning on getting married? ask me, please. i dare you.