my comp is fixed. which may be bad. i don't need to be on here anymore than usual. but i can be on here whenever. and do whatever. so. maybe. whatever.
i feel the aftermath of leaving is wearing off. it seems when i am hurt by others from the church it takes tole and time. seems to knock the wind out of me causing me some downtime that has sway on my relationship with my Creator. which stinks. and also means that its influence doesn't release until i take note. i am hungry for that real relationship with God through people who love without agenda or condition. people who search Him out earnestly and honestly. without putting Him into an equation or box. i have those people now. and i think i will embrace them more now that i have taken note of the tripping. time to move on.
tomorrow i try on wedding dresses. i have never tried on a wedding dress. but this is the right time. the right person. i love this person, i know. and there is no hiding. he is it. the one i said to be careful of exposing. he is mine. in a matter of months. how crazy is that?
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